cuts and bruises

Day one
im almost done
my flesh has
become numb
and if I beg for help
no one will ever come
my feelings have been
released
the hurt is now deceased
and my pain has been
decreased
my sane I can keep
I mean the more I go deep
the more I lose heat
I cut in the bathroom sink
and let the blood leak through
my sheets
I can escape from the world
I can escape from these streets
Day two
its so true
the things you can do
that the deeper you cut
the better it feels
the feeling is too real
the pain that it heals
My hope has been killed
This life I can no longer
deal
I cut and I cut to be
devoured as a meal
I cut really fast
but the world stands still
im eating my inside
to escape from my out
I scream and I shout
but no one cares what
its about
my mothers upstairs
and no one ever listens
brother sells drugs
dad smokes in the kitchen
Day three
im so free
but this is not who I want
to be
Why can't they see? Why
can't anybody hear me?
Today I may have cut just a little
too deep, cut right through
my red ink
 my right hand is bleeding blood
on the sink
I can no longer think
my heart is skipping beats
racing in my shirt
the pain is in my veins
but the pain doesn't hurt
I almost pissed through my skirt
dad is yelling my name from downstairs
to come give him a match
I feel an itch in my heart
an itch I can't scratch
dad's knocking on the
door and my vision went black
my vision never came back
now that im gone and feelings
have been screwed in
I hope they can hear my cries
through my cuts and bruises

im not bitter

im not bitter
im just cold
cuz my heart has been
told
all these lies
that unfold
and the truth love never
holds
the tears always seem to control
my happiness was ripped and stoled
my feelings you have thrown
you littered the earth with my
heart and soul
im not bitter
im just cold
my love was once
gold
the sky above was once
old
you made it
black
now I cant get it back
im under an attack
lost in my heart and I cant
find a map
man I cant get on track
im running and im
running but
I feel young and dumb
I feel like a bumb
on sunny days your always there
but you leave soon as the rain comes