Respect.

I do not want to so

3 types of guys

1. Good Guy. Family oriented. Loves his mom.  Tired of females saying they want a good guy and then when he comes along he gets played. Not that good looking but he is smart with a mountain load of confidence sometimes. Respects females, the queer among his friends who writes poems for his girlfriends. Thinks of romantic dates so he can make his girlfriend happy. Has been hurt many times tried to resort to becoming a player but realized it wasn't for him. Would do anything to make his girl happy but feels females take advantage of that. He is not perfect but tries his best. His friends always call him stupid or whipped for treating his girlfriend so good.

2. Lame Guy. Dates the girl that he thinks is the easiest to get. Would do anything to get some so he can brag to his boys and seem cool. He is a virgin but he will never admit it. He drinks and smokes only when he is around his boys.  He always talks about how different and real he is. Always talks about his tattoos to prove his importance. He always checks to see what his friends think about the girl he likes before he tries to talk to her. Talks a lot. Calls girls bitches. Wears only what is in style at the moment. Afraid to be himself. He will never embrace a girl emotionally/affectionately around his boys. Brags about getting high, or his minimum wage job. Lost. Confused. Acts different towards his girlfriend around his boys. After high school he didn't do much with his life. His boys don't respect him but he acts like he doesn't know.He will get a good girl and treat her like dump because he wants to be a player like his friends.  After he loses her he will realize she was a good girl but it will be too late to get her back.  

3. Different/ Stand out Guy.
Looking for a girl who can offer something intellectually. Hard working wants to do something with his life. Thinks for himself. He can be a player but when he finds the right one he will put that aside. The leader out of his friends. He treats hoes like hoes and ladies like ladies. Went through a lot in the past which he seems to keep to himself. The girl who he reveals his deep feelings to is the one. Keeps most of his deep thoughts to himself. When he comes into the room something about him gets attention. No matter how corny or wack something he says is everyone laughs because he said it. Every girl wants to be with him and every girl wants to fight his girlfriend. He is tired of girls liking him because of his social status. He is always looking for a real and different girl and never seems to find her.

Stupid Questions. Smart Answers. -don't be offended lol

Are You a virgin? That doesn't matter, but when you get a std it will
How old are you? old enough
What made you come to college? My wallet died.
Are you insecure? Yes, we have something in common
Why did you wear that? cuz I know who I am
Why do you talk like that? I don't let others control the way I speak
Why are you single? I keep running into ppl like you
Crush: What do you like about me? Everything but that question
What happened to us? realization
Why are your parents so strict? They actually love me
Are you a fashion major? I have a brain.
Why did you do your hair like that?same reason your mom let you out the house like that
Why do you look nice? some things come naturally when you're blessed
Why don't say good morning to me? There is nothing good about the morning or you
Why you act  like you can't speak? you're the expert at acting, u tell me.
Why are you so deep? Cuz I speak from the soul
Why are you always working? Hard work beats talent when talent doesn't work hard
Why are you so quiet? The loudest shorty in the room is usually the brokest, reiteration of Wale
Why are you so weird, random- because you're not use to real people
Why do you take certain things so seriously? Jokes are a nice way of saying the truth
Why don't you curse in your raps?  Cursing comes from a small mind expressing his/herself forcefully
Why do you play all these  unknown artist? Playing mainstream only will make you stupid
Why are you so slow?  creative minds take time
Why did you change? If you think I change you never knew me
Why are you so opinionated? The world is dying slow thought I try to save it.
Where do you live? This dirty place called Earth
Why don't you drink? I don't need to be under the influence to speak the truth
Why don't you smoke? I want to die at the right time
Why you waiting until marriage? I don't want to end up like you
Why are your lips so big? I had a lot of negative things to say but kept it to myself.
What is the BLACK perspective on this topic? I didn't know I had to dumb down my viewpoint to an inanimate object in order for you to understand.

Random thoughts

im so tired
5 more weeks
I have to finish strong
im so tired
im scared to say I have to finish
strong because I'm afraid of failure
red bangs I should get em
that wouldn't look right though?
fake people think their real
real people don't have to think about it
second nature
human nature Mike Jack come back
I ignore the fakes and try to be nice
what am I talking about?
Wale is the ishh
idc what anyone says
I wonder who will win the 2012 presidential election
a lot of people would be mad if Obama won again.
Haha, ummm yea I need to go home
and do my homework

This boy I know (clean version)

You use to be a good boy
Never stuck up or arrogant
now you tryna be a hood boy?
You use to leave me happy and
satisfied.
calm and collected
Now all you think of is
yourself you just
want to be respect
you got me feeling all types of
messed up lost and neglected
who do I go to now?
you're the only boy that I can mess with
Money coming in now
I know you want me back cuz I can sense it
Things are going a little smooth
got me a new figure
the only thing left is a new boy
and boys don't ask to fight the boy
cuz you'll have to fight me cuz lifes
the boy.

Feeling Down

Lately a lot of things have been making feel a little down. I am staying as positive as possible.

"The Rise"

I broke out of the dirt and they
tried to push me back
I broke out of the violence still
they paint my heart black
burying my pride with humbleness
I stay alive
Eating every bar is the only way I can
survive
I'm up earlier than the sun so you know I'm
on the rise
It's like I already won so I'm
something like a prize
Music is the escape the world is the case
I'm breaking through it just like the planet
of the apes
cuz when I'm the ground there is no one to be
found
As soon as I shoot up the clowns always stand around
I'm seeing through the eyes of a Somalian Child
My stomach is crying hunger but I can't eat now
Cuz the pain in my belly, plus the sweat on my back plus
 the weight on my brain= a chick that spits crack
 I'm alone in a desert and lions want to attack
the only weapon I have is my faith and spitting raps
So i spit then I roar then the lion roars more
I try to put up a fight knowing Im scared to the core
the lion claws on my face and I fall on the sand floor
left with three deep wounds that turn into a soar
I grab the sand in my hand and throw it in the beast's eyes
I get right back up cuz I'm always on the rise
The lion is my conscious my greatest ally
IF losing if the death of me then I will never die
been spitting for many years but haters don't want to hear
time to to put these Lion(lien) haters on the rack so they clear
clearance
two black roads and one leads to death
two  two black roads and one leads
the other one leads to the Devil on his left
to be continued...

What I have to offer

Well, since I have the longest criteria list, I am listing what I have to offer. I have to offer a lot of emotional support. I will actually listen and care about the most of the things that you talk about. I will actually try to push you to excel and better yourself. I will expect the same thing in return. I will tell you the truth most of the time even if it will hurt your feelings.  I don't nag a lot even though it may seem like it lol. Also, you get to be with a pretty decent lady lol. I am funny when you really get to know me you need a little laughter and a relief from stress in life. I have my own money I will not be on your neck for a $ buck. If your hungry and you don't feel like going to micky d's i got you lol. If I don't know how to cook it will learn only if you're worth it though. I am a hard worker when it comes to school and money. I want to succeed in life I don't just want to sit on my ass and look pretty. I am an artist. I will love to write poems or songs about someone I care about. This I have never done before no one has ever deserved it. I hope no one reads this blog lol.  But yea I have to offer good advice which most people don't listen to and realize I was right in the end. I need advice myself I will expect this in return. A muslim girl with morals and respect for herself. Once I say I will do something I will try my best to follow through. I know how to put myself together  meaning I keep myself up. I like to see others succeed and make it. I will always motivate the person who I am with. I remember I treated some guy differently around my friend that is something I will never do again. Something that I have not done again because people are not worth giving up someone special to you. Therefore, I will treat you the same in front of everyone. I am not perfect and I do not expect the perfect person.

My criteria

Most say that the picky people will stay single forever but I refuse to lower my standards.   Im not looking for prince charming because I don't believe in fairytales. I love everyone and I am as open as I can be. But yea here goes my criteria: He has to be some kinda weird I mean not to the point where he is annoying but to the point where he can put up with my bs. lol Also by weird I mean have his own style and swag not some duplicated Wiz Khalifa dude. Someone I can hold an intellectual conversation with and someone who is creative. Not that I have anything against Wiz Khalifa but the flyest thing is when a dude has his own style. Also patience is key since I move really slow compared to most girls. I want him to be some kind of funny/ goofy lol and have a sense of humor. Who wants someone with a stick in their ass all the time? I love someone with some kind of artistic ability whether it is singing, rapping, poetry, drawing, humor, fashion etc. Someone who I feel safe with. By SAFE I mean he can defend himself I don't want to get robbed and the dude is hiding behind me lol.  He has to have some kind of self esteem I don't want to be the one to pick up the pieces of your insecurity. Faithful definitely don't get in a relationship if you cannot commit to one person. Trustworthy. I want him to know how to cook I can cook somewhat  but I  want someone that will treat me once in a while lol. Color doesn't really matter to me I must admit I use to care but now I do not see the point in limiting my  options to race. My English is horrible right now, random thought. Anyways,  he has to smell good =. You don't have to have on muslim oils 24/7 but it will be nice to have a signature scent it adds to your presence.  Someone who will listen to my stories lol and laugh even they are not funny. You don't really have to laugh but it would be nice if you listen. I definitely cannot deal with a disbeliever. God comes first before me. Money? Im not a gold digger but I believe you should have enough money to survive on. Education is important please tell me you graduated high school and you're at least thinking about going to college? Or you went to some kind of school, trade or prep program after high school. Someone who isn't afraid to express the way he feels about me or anything and cry in front of me because he feels I will think he is weak. Someone that values, trusts and respects me. Please don't be a drug addict. Cigarettes are nasty and weed is illegal where I'm from at least. I don't care too much about drinking just don't be a drunkard.  Also, don't front in front of your friends never happened to me but dudes have a tendency to do this. Don't ever say lets keep it on the low. FOH you should be lucky you have the opportunity to show me off.  Never happened to me but it has happened to people I know. Don't ever call me bad, sexy, boo, wifey, my thing thing, boop, stank all those names are bs. They don't mean shitt. Also if you're over 24 and you're still in moms house that is not a good look.  My age range is 18-21 btw.  Maybe 22. This age range may fluctuate but I will never go over 23. Also, don't think anything is going to happen before marriage I do not have to go into detail about what I mean. I am not that kind of girl. Of course you do not have to meet each criteria which I have posted but at least 70-80%.

Boy meets Girl

Boy: What's wrong with you
Girl: I hate

Black Roads

Two black roads and one leads to death
The other one leads to the devil with his left
hand man the son of Satan
The Qu'ran is the most powerful weapon in my
hand
Three gun shots and I don't know where to stand
Cuz I always been an outcast like hunchback of
Notre Dame
Beauty in the Dark cuz my vision is blinded
If you looking for another me you will never find
it

my best friend lives in Venus

Her name is Septulla
she has green hair
always telling me
dig your nails tell the
haters you don't care
she eats the fireballs from
the sun
purple skin that has no acne
I wish my face was that clear
black eye balls without a dot
she writes too she's on her
way to the top
she goes to Saturn
to record
always asking me about Earth?
She can't survive on our planet
cuz she's allergic to oxygen

random thoughts/ I can't believe

I looked up in the sky
to see a heart shaped cloud
if you a wierdo u can say it loud
and proud
I guess we in now
everytime I fail it pushes
me to the top
laughing at my situation today
but tomorrow you'll have nothing
to say
I cry everytime I write
 I let my pen do the expressions
my soul absorbs the pain
I'm always full like a fat guy
basement full of tornado water
room full of your cologne
scared to say some things
must of you won't understand

I can't believe I am already half way through the semester.

Free imaginative thoughts

I want to grow like a lily
in the swamp
I want breathe like an infant
that came to the world
and had to breathe the first
breath of Earth's air
Can I be free like Eve
was naked
at least Adam wasn't a player
Can I have a free
mouth without duct taped
so the truth doesn't escape
and fly like the sun
and mysteriously free like the moon
I want to be more free
than Nakshimi in Sold
Free like a nerd in college
free from ignorance and
being content
let me walk barefoot
soo my toes can breathe
beautifully free without
having to breath the pollution
in the air
I want to experience photosynthesis
at natures best
 lay my head down
so my mind can rest
free from failure
filled with achievements
free from a shot blood
artery in my heart
my nails grew black
after I lost my freedom

Why I write

I'm writing like God put this pen and 

paper in my hand

Opening my mind to lyrics

I can't even understand 

I'm writing for the earthquake that 

occured in Japan

I'm writing for the hunger and 

starvation in Sudan

I'm writing for the girl that doesnt 

know where to start

cuz every boy that she's been with left her

with a broken heart

I'm writing for the blessed ones

I'm writing for the cursed

I'm writing like Charles Dickens

for the best of times and the worst

Why does wrong look right?

Why does right look wrong?

Why can't people pay attention

to the words in a song?

I'm writing for the truth that was 

there all along 

I'm writing from the morning 

to noon until dawn. 

I'm writing for the single mother 

whos crying till she bleeds

cuz she just lost her job 

and there is no money to feed

I'm down both knees begging my creator please

cure the disease and bless others to believe 

The black lake

blakc lake lost
sake too many
mistakes can't

:I love my new apartment

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What is beauty?

Beauty is honesty. Because honesty is hard to be whilst lying is easy. Beauty is Confidence. If you're beautiful without knowing your beautiful anybody can tell you your ugly and you'll believe them.  Also, you're beauty will be useless because you would not know how to implement it into your life. Beauty is unity. It is sad when we separate because of conflict, especially because of race, religion and sexual orientation. Beauty is diversity. A group of different people or things that stand out and allows a room for tolerance and understanding. Beauty is tolerance. The ability to understand another culture other than your own takes discipline and a person with an open mind. Beauty is courage. Courage is beautiful because the courageous understand the difference between being afraid and still standing up and being afraid and using that as an excuse not to stand up. Also the courageous know the difference between oppressing others and standing up for what you believe in. Beauty is freedom. The ability to be who you want to be and not care what others think about it. Beauty is intellectuality. The ability to seek knowledge and care to know. Beauty is justice. When each member of the same society receives the equal rights established by law. Beauty is honor. The courtesy to honor the people who have enabled you to succeed or make it in any aspect of achievement. Beauty is artistry. The ability of one to express their thoughts through drawing, poetry, fashion, music and etc. Beauty is Complimentary. The ability of someone to compliment something that is beautiful instead of undermining the beauty because you feel it is a threat towards your beauty.  Beauty is you. Beauty is understanding. The ability for one to understand something else besides their own strong personal beliefs takes maturity. Beauty is knowledge. When someone is very well informed of the world around them it is beautiful because it shows the person can help others who are not informed.   Beauty is victory. Victory is beautiful because to win takes hard work and dedication the victory proves that the hard work had a purpose. Beauty is you.

Class Blog name poems from the perspective

A Dork Named JEN

Im a Dork so that means
I like video games and pickles
my boyfriend gets mad cuz
I don't tickle so he fickles
I snort when I laugh and my
hearts a litte brittle so I fiddle
like I'm malcolm in the middle


A Greek Man
I don't need to think
hard I leave that to
my ancestors

Brain Excretement

Brain excretement
so they've seen then
my electric neurons
will shock you into
a new lens
purple slime on your
cerebrum will have
wanting new trends
cerebral fluid in your new
mends


Finishing soon

something Ill never rap

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Once a .....Always a ....

Once a hater always a hater. Once a liar always a liar. Once an abuser always an abuser. Once a wierdo always a wierdo. Once a lover always a lover. Once a gangsta always a gangsta. Once a player always a player. Once a fighter always a fighter. Once an honest person always an honest person. Once a hitter always a hitter. Once a womanizer always a womanizer. Once a rapper always a rapper. Once a nerd always nerd. Once a hypocrite always a hypocrite. Once a loser always a loser. Once a punk always a punk. Once a poser always a poser. Once an idiot always an idiot. Once a racist always a racist. Once a biggot always a biggot. Once a winner always a winner. Once an artist always an artist. Once a New Jersian always a New Jersian. Once New Yorker always a New Yorker. Once  a Professor always a Professor. Once a Doctor always a Doctor. Once a happy camper always a happy camper. Once a debby downer always a debby downer. One a dancer always a dancer. One you go hard you ill always go hard. Once you hate life you will always hate life. Once a success always a success. Once an outcast always an outcast.

Free write (misunderstood).

the mic is my brain
the holder of the insane
I can't seem to contain all
these emotions and explain
one minute I'm the love
next min I'm  the hate
Hungry ass lions
tryna eat me off the plate
I'm only a human being
so I'm bound to make
mistakes
The world spins around
misunderstanding
so it's spinning around my
face
When I speak the truth I'm fake
When I'm fake I speak the truth
The only time I'm hott is when
I'm speaking nonsense in the booth
the conscious word is under rated
sedated and inflated I don't want
to seem like I'm complaining
but the sun is out while it's raining
big belly kids are not the concern
while the money is the burn
hard to give an education
cuz no one really wants to learn
im letting life take its turn
like the little girl that could
the little girl misunderstood

Free write

the music is violence

the violence feeds off the

silence; reiteration of Lupe

but who say I got the kill

lost sight strange chick but I got the skill 

Free write part 2, so cruel like Jews 

meek millz said he got a dime cuz he knows

5 X2 never really begged to shine, but I know 

whats mine my nose quivers at the swine

and when the smells of evil come out of line 

I had a dude who was confused 

didnt know who to choose he went

for the other so he was gauranteed to lose

spick span shoes like Nigeria on the move

I'm going to Jamaica thats where Stella got her groove

back, lack as obvious as that hard work

beats talent when talent doesnt work hard

if rap was a pool i would love to be the 

life gaurd I swear everything is off the dome

like U.S.A swore Algore would win in 2000

watch me surf the web of rap im bound to 

do  alot of browsing

I dont understand why shorty stands with her man

when he doesnt care about her and slaps her with his left

hand. damn 

talk about domestic violence when you spilling

from the can 

if my lips were tuct with duct tape 

I would find a way to escape FREE

write part 2

let me show you to the case

the code is 7.7.93 thats

when Ayinke was born to be your

fav mc's face 

I Remember When.

I remember when sorry meant I won't do it again. I remember when talent was not based on looks. I remember when I love you meant I want to be with you forever not I want to be with you tonight. I remember when a woman's beauty was based on her face not only her physical assets. I remember when I could pick up my lollipop when I dropped it on the ground  and kiss it up to God and all the germs would go away. I remember when being weird wasn't cool. I remember when I liked to read. I remember when I didn't have much money. I remember living in Newark, New Jersey and thinking fighting everyday was normal. I remember when being an African was looked down upon. I remember when I knew exactly who I was and who I wanted to be. I remember when I didn't have to check over my shoulder twice to see if someone stabbed me in the back. I remember when I could be myself without being judged. I remember when people got a tat for a reason not to just say they're tatted. I remember when twenty - five cents was all I needed to be happy. I remember when a friend meant someone who was there when you were down not only when you're up. I remember when I could say I was a muslim without having to worry about being asked about terrorism. I remember when I trusted people. I remember when I use to care about you. I remember when I gave a f... about opinions. I remember when I had love for everyone. I remember when I was so naive. I remember when life was smooth. I remember when I didn't have to think back to when things were good in order to feel better.

Pet Peeves

I feel like this is going to be my longest blog. Matter fact the longest blog ever. My pet peeves. I mean of course I know I am not perfect but some people take it too far ugh like wtf? I am so annoyed like so annoyed with fake people. If you don't like me just show it. Don't tell other people you hate me and smile in my face like we're cool. Cuz your only hurting yourself anyway, cuz I really don't care if you don't like me. I was not born for you to like me. I hate when a dude stares at me, if you want to talk to me just say hi, I will say hi back. Like I'm really that friendly lol. Just as long as you don't take it too far. Don't stare its mad rude and makes me feel so uncomfortable. I hate when people with the worst problems talk about people. Like the ugliest people I judge ugly people by personality. Ugly people always have something negative to say about others. Like shut up you have the same problem. And you must have low self esteem if you always  try to bring someone down to make yourself feel better. At the end of the day you will still be insecure. I hate when friends laugh at my failure because it makes them feel good about theirs. Like even when I fail and you succeed I will be happy for you. Just because I know if you can do it I know it is possible for me to do it too. This is something I have noticed about people. No one wants to see you make it, or be successful. Or if they want you to make it. They don't want you to make it over them. I never had a true friend before, maybe when I was like six but I don't count that. I dislike players and when guys refer to girls as bitches it is so degrading. I feel like you have no respect for your mother. If you say all females are bitches then you are saying you were conceived from a bitch. Which makes you a bitch, IDIOT.  Some dude called my friend a bitch today. I don't care what she said to you, this dude was a grown man. Who should know from left to right. Do you think calling her a bitch makes you appear as a Superior? I am not bias I totally disagree with girls calling guys niggas too. You girls look even more retarded. Girls are always like I need a real nigga. So you're saying you need a real ignorant un-educated black man? stupid idiot lol. And then girls wonder why they can't find the right one. You keep looking for real niggas and that is exactly what you get lol. I hate when people say they're going to do something and they don't do it. I mean I do this at times too but I try my best not too. I hate when African-Americans make fun of Africans straight from the motherland. The only difference between an African in America and an African-American in America is the means of transportation, African- Americans came with a boat and Africans came with a plane.

Thoughts from the beggar on Bloody Street

What do I do tonight? I just made $500. My stomach is smiling cuz I just had my first  hot dinner from McDonalds in three days. Damn it feels good to be full. Maybe I can finally buy some new gloves cuz these gloves are done for. The holes on my gloves are starting to attract roaches. Do I  sit on the corner asking for more change? Maybe they will pay me because I'm most known on these bloody streets. "I hear em down the corner yelling, Scott Pete." Get off my corner they all say." "I'm tryna sell yay." "Scott out here downtown fooling on broadway." My mom kicked me out the house when I was eighteen. Since then I've been sitting here making sick green. I know everything that goes on around here in Crenshaw, Cali." Last night after asking some rich kid for some change I witnessed three dead bodies." This was normal her on the boulevard of south central LA. A prostitute, a drug dealer and a pimp murdered. That pimp was my best friend from high school Pimp Slick.  He got all the girls back then by just showing his gold teeth.  He is the one that hooked me up with Ashley. I could believe their was murder cause it happened everyday. But I  couldn't believe they got my brother ride or die Pimp Slick.  Everybody knew his wallet stayed fat working at his father's barbershop. I remember high school. I would do it again if I could. Dropped outta school real tho quick cuz I hated to read. I wish I could go back but it's too late. What I look like learning algebra at twenty-eight? "Now I  got a baby on the way little girl Chrisitne." Baby momma in my ear  nagging all the time, "like get a job, you a bum. " I'm like whatever at least I aint got six sons." She like what? I'm like nothing. My baby momma Ashley like" oh ok,  I thought you said sumthin smart I was bout to say. She start nagging again, "Don't you get tired of this corner go back home, get ya shidd together, start acting grown."Ashley is my high school sweet heart we were in love ever since my sophomore year, the year before I dropped out. The year before my life changed.  Ashley was different from me. I don't know wat she saw in my good for nutting ass. I mean Ashley was smart. Ashley graduated number one in our class. She was supposed to go to Yale but she got pregnant by old boy Chris down the block her senior year of high school.

I 'm Happy.

I wish I was as happy as my smile said I am
Saying that they care but they really don't give
a damn
I wish I was as happy as my smile  said I am
life full of hurt and nobody understands
I wish I was as happy as my smile said I am
smile full of lies,
says the palm of my hands
locked lips pinned emotions
letter sealed without a stamp
I wish I was as happy as my smile said I am
I threw my thoughts into a bottle
hoping you will read it
breathe them into your soul
never feel relief and feel the
same stress I felt when I
believed him
that may release the pain I've been
feeling every season
the same pain that I can't let go
my smile says I'm happy
but my mind says no
i'm wishing for another feeling
so I can smile with a truth
false truce, heart stomped upon,
swimming in the lies from you
death pond of hope we'll see
who can survive
love is fighting against our race to be alive
cuz our race attracts to lust of faces
instead of loving what's inside
black pit of agony Angel by the creek
animalistic desires , unrealistic dreams
just to make reality better than what it seems
Dear thoughts how could you knowingly deceive me?
From lips, yours truly, matter fact sincerely.

Cyber Bullying

I read a commentary in the New York Times today October 5, 2011 which mentioned several controversies that may arise if a cyber bullying law is established.  The conflict with addressing cyber bullying is that many states say,"it's amorphous nature and rapidly changing technological aspect of it makes it difficult for court's and school's to address."  The first paragraph of the passage informed how in every five middle school students one of them has been affected by cyber bullying. The statistics can keep going from there. It is crazy because no one really cares about cyber bullying  until it happens to them. To be honest I really did not care until it happened to me.  Basically I feel people do not understand the severity of a case such as this until the extreme occurs. Such as the Rutger's University student who committed suicide because a video of him having intimate relations with a guy was posted on the internet.  Shortly after the incident New Jersey has made laws against cyber bullying. Why is that someone has to die before an issue like this is addressed? Many U.S.A states have failed to incorporate this law in their statutes. I believe it is time for authorities to take action and make laws against cyber bullying. Of course the one being bullied should have evidence of the cyber bullying post because according to law you are innocent until proven guilty. Also, I believe the judicial system does not know how to go about the consequences of the cyber bullying. The real question is how far will the law allow cyber bullying to go? How would you feel if you are in the comfort of your home maybe taking a shower and the next day you check your Facebook and someone has a picture of you naked on their wall post? Not too good I would think. Think about the future generation.

Phobias

God is my greatest fear . There are certain things in life that scare me a lot as well. I try my best to behave as if I'm not afraid of anything but I am. One of the things in life that scares me the most is dying without making a mark on the world. I do not want to die without achieving at least one of my long term goals. The second thing that scares me the most is walking past a group of black guys alone. This may sound stereotypical but you never know if they will try to talk to you, or steal your purse. The third thing that scares me the most is when someone constantly stares at me like what are you thinking about while you're staring? Am I that interesting to look at? Omgosh I am so scared of confrontation or when someone says, "Can I ask you something?" This brings about the worst possible series of questions in my mind that I think the person is going to ask me. Like why don't you just ask the question? Why do you have to ask a question before the real question? I am so afraid of clowns like why are you so happy? No one is really that happy. I feel like when someone smiles too much they are going to do something mischievous. Something else that scares me is failure, I feel like if I fail I have nothing to live for. I feel like the world just stopped and I am the only one in it with this sh** feeling. Another thing that scares me is approaching a professor, they always look pissed off. Being in love is definitely a phobia of mine. I do not want to give someone my heart because that means you trust them enough to hurt it. I am afraid of heart break. I am afraid of letting someone down. People depend on us on a daily basis and I feel if I am not there for someone,  I betrayed them. I am afraid of gaining weight. As a female when your fat it is harder to deal with. People assume you have low self esteem because you're over weight and blah blah blah. Being fat seems hard to deal with. I remember one day my friends and I had a senior trip to dorney park. I had a fat friend who was told he could not get on the rides because he could not fit. That is so embarrassing I do not want to go through that. Another thing that scares me is dying. I do not want to be six feet under alone. That is so scary. Plus I know I am not perfect I have sinned a lot. I try my best to be a good person but yea I hope God forgives me for my sins. Car accidents scare the crap out of me. Over the summer I was in like three car accidents. I never want to experience that again. It is the worst feeling especially when it is your fault.

Maybe

Maybe I received another chance cause God wanted to see if I would change.  Maybe my natural hair is nappy to symbolize the hard work and pain of my ancestors. Maybe we can never be cause he's Asian and I'm African. Maybe the end of the world is coming soon and the disbelievers will not believe until they're right in front of God asking for a second chance. Maybe we will all go to heaven. Maybe I dream a little too much. Maybe there will be a day I can have an understanding with my enemies. Maybe there will be a day the world will read my blog and listen to my music. Maybe I will achieve all my goals with hard work and dedication. Maybe one day you can look past the complexion of my skin. Maybe one day you can put jealousy aside and appreciate a person for who they are. Maybe I'm doing this blog to vent out problems that most people don't care about, or are happy that I have them. Maybe I need to believe in myself more. Maybe I'm from another planet. Maybe we all die to hug God in person. Maybe I came to college cuz I need to mature and understand this world a little better. Maybe I always procrastinate cuz I'm lazy and I don't feel like doing work. Maybe I need to realize the world doesn't revolve around me. Maybe, not. Maybe I turned him off cuz he misunderstood me for being conceited instead of a little confident. Maybe I just wasted four years of my life in high school cuz none of the material learned there is learned in college. Maybe I sound retarded cuz I'm writing whatever comes to mind. Maybe I need another vacation so I can come back fully prepared to do all this work. Maybe I love music because I feel like I can escape reality. Maybe Professor Pack wants our class to do a blog because he wants to know more about our personal lives lol. Maybe people hate me because they don't understand me. Maybe people love because they understand how honest I can be. Maybe I can't cry when I'm sad cuz God made my heart out of steel and expects me to be stronger. Maybe I was blessed with a talent to save the world. Maybe I think to big and do to little. Maybe you always try to make me feel small in order to try to make yourself feel better. Maybe you will never feel better. Maybe I am having too much fun with this blog. Maybe you're bored reading this or you're interested reading this. Maybe you expected more from maybe you expected less. Maybe you thought I cared about your opinion. Maybe I smile way too much and maybe you thought I had a thing for you because of that. Maybe we have an African and American president because the world is going to end soon. Maybe the rich get richer and the poor get poorer because in the after life the rich will be poor and the poor will be rich. Maybe I made a positive difference in your life after you read this . Maybe.  Just maybe.......