I 'm Happy.

I wish I was as happy as my smile said I am
Saying that they care but they really don't give
a damn
I wish I was as happy as my smile  said I am
life full of hurt and nobody understands
I wish I was as happy as my smile said I am
smile full of lies,
says the palm of my hands
locked lips pinned emotions
letter sealed without a stamp
I wish I was as happy as my smile said I am
I threw my thoughts into a bottle
hoping you will read it
breathe them into your soul
never feel relief and feel the
same stress I felt when I
believed him
that may release the pain I've been
feeling every season
the same pain that I can't let go
my smile says I'm happy
but my mind says no
i'm wishing for another feeling
so I can smile with a truth
false truce, heart stomped upon,
swimming in the lies from you
death pond of hope we'll see
who can survive
love is fighting against our race to be alive
cuz our race attracts to lust of faces
instead of loving what's inside
black pit of agony Angel by the creek
animalistic desires , unrealistic dreams
just to make reality better than what it seems
Dear thoughts how could you knowingly deceive me?
From lips, yours truly, matter fact sincerely.