Eating till I drop

These days I have been so stressed with school so I have been eating away my stress. Thank God I have a fast metabolism I would have been Fat Albert by now. Every time I think about school I eat so I can comfort myself. I am eating chicken right now thinking about it. I now understand why people drink and smoke. But I can never go that path but I now have a deeper understanding on why people do it.  God is also my stress reliever I put my hope and faith in him and I believe everything will be fine.  I am really in my own world now afraid of failure so afraid that if I say I'm afraid I'm afraid that I will fail because I said Im afraid. I have failed many times in my past which has molded me into the fighter I am in today. But its to the point now where I want to know what winning feels like. Not to say I have never achieved in the past of course I have but I know what real achievement feels like. Te kind of achievement which people recognize. I want to make it God help me make it. Help me help myself so you can help me.  I need to focus block the world out and and get my life figured out. I feel like I know what I want and I need to look at it and only see it and everything else in the way I should put to the side and look at my goal only. Life is such a con artist. She comes around and gives you a taste of the good and takes it away as soon as it touches your tongue so she can laugh at your stupidity. Something I have learned is that nothing good comes without hard work. Everything good that comes is through hard work and dedication. Hard work and dedication will get me to my destination.